My time at Banff has transformed me to know that it is in moments of peace, of feeling empty, of patience, of “sitting,” that we are often learning, absorbing and experiencing the most. I leave Banff with a first draft of my play, new friends and mentors, and a necessity for a lactose-free diet. Most importantly, I now know that it is possible to sit with nothing, till nothing is something.
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For myself, this is a dramaturg’s dream. To be in constant conversation with a playwright, watching the polaroid of the play find its full color as it develops. Here, with Joanna, I was lucky enough to be in conversations about both plays, two different worlds, both evolving.
The pattern was: Write 2/3. Sit with it. Revisit it. Hate it. Throw it all away. Jose Rivera said, “Often, writer’s block happens to you because somewhere in your work you’ve lied to yourself and your subconscious won’t let you go any further until you’ve gone back, erased the lie, stated the truth and started over.”
Somehow knowing my grandmothers are guiding my pen and my great grandmother’s spirit continues to give me unspoken inspiration. I know that the only way to pay homage to these warriors is to set aside my guilt and write their stories. Stories of hard work, stories of their dreams, and bigger and grander stories of their conflicted love and guilt.